Man Ka Angan

Wo ye bhi nahi samajh pa raha tha ki wo is samay kisse baat kar raha hai. Use is prakar ki baaten karni bhi chahiye ya nahi. Lekin zaroorat bawali hoti hai. Is samay usko bur ki aawashekta thi aur wo use kavita ke hi pass mil sakti thi. Kavita ko bahka kar wo apne raste par le aana chahta tha. Wo chara fenk raha tha. Ab uske bhagye me hoga to machhali fanse gi nahi to wo khatia khinch ke chalasa jayega. Lekin use pura yakeen tha ki machhali fansegi zaroor. Aur isi liye wo puri tarah behayayee par utar aaya tha. Wo kavita ki kamar se lipat ta hi jar aha tha. Bilkul sat jana chahta tha. Kavita khisak rahi thi. Wo khud ko manish se alag rakhna chah rahi thi lekin safal nahi ho pa rahi thi. “na baba papa ko maloom ho jayega to bahut bigrenge, mai aisi gandi film nahi dekhungi.” “tub hi puri pagal hai, are papa ko kaise maloom hoga.” “tum na bata doge.” “mai bhala kyon batane lagunga?” “fir agar kisi tarah pitaji ko pata chal jayega to?” “tu fikar mat kar kisi ko pata nahi hone payega.” “kaisi hai….maza aata hai?” “are kavita dekh legi to mast ho jayegi.” “bahut jyada naked sin hai kya?” “bilkul khuli….” “Bilkul…kya sab-kuchh dikha diya kya?” “are aikdum saf lete dete dikha diya hai.” “bhaiya.”

Wo sharma uthi. “pagli sharmati hai yahi to umar hai khub jeebhar kar mauj-masti loot le fir kahan aayegi ye umar. Mai to kal fir jaunga, tabiyat mast ho jati hai, tub hi chalna.” “thik hai lekin kisi ko pata nahi chalna chahiye.” “nahi, kisi ko kan-o-kan khabar nahi ho payegi.” “tab to zaroor chaloongi, kaun sa show chaloge?” “sham wala thik rahega…tu sham ko taiyyar ho jana, mai film dekhne ki aagyan maa se le loonga, unko ye nahi bataya jayega ki man ka aangan dekhne jana hai.” “thik hai.” Wo man hi man nihal ho uthi thi. Kuchh der dono maun rahe.

Aur fir is khamoshi ko manish ne toda- “abhi kahan se aayee ho?” “gayee thi English film dekhne.” “kaun si dekhi?” “the lovers of Isadora.” “bahut achhchhi film hai.” “wo bhi to sexy film hai?” “han hai to sexy lekin koi khas nahi.” “maza to aa gaya hoga, maine bhi dekhi hai, sara ka sara sharir sarsara uth ta hai.” “han..” “kavita.” “kya.” “aik baat puchhun?” “puchho bhaiya.” “kya aurat ki pyas wakai me aisi hoti hai jaisi Isadora ki thi, usne 3 mardon ke sath pyar kiya tha, aur sab ne uski jawani ke sath khela tha, kya wastav me aurat 3 mardon ki lagatar pyas bujha sakti hai?” “is sawal ko tum mujhse kyon puchh rahe ho?” “kyon ki tum ladki ho aur aurat ki bhawna ko achchhi tarah samajhne kit um me samarth hai, mai janna chahta hun ki wastav me aurat ke andar itni pyas hoti hai.” “han” “kya tumhare ander bhi aisi koi baat hai?” “wo to wastaweak hi hai har ladki ke andar ye sab vidheyman hota hai.” “Achchha kavita ye to batao bahut si kitabon me bhai-bahan ke pyar ki kahani chhapi hoti hai, kya wo satye hota hai?” “Kitabon me wahi chhapta hai jo hota nahi to ho sakta hai.”

Manish apni bahan ko rah par lane ki har tarah se koshish kar raha tha aur use aasha thi ki wo isme safalta prapt kar lega. Lekin khul kar apni bahan ke aage wo apni wasna ko shant karne ka prastaw na rakh pa raha tha. Achanak kavita ne karwat lee to uske sine par se chadar dhalak gayee. Ye anjane taur par ho gaya tha ya usne jankar kiya tha is ke Visay me to sahi sahi nahi kaha ja sakta lekin usne dhalak gayee chadar ko thik nahi kiya jiske karan uski dono chuchiyan jo bra ke andar kaid thi manish ke aankhon ke samne aa gayee. Manish fate-fate netron se uski ardh nirwastra chuchion ko dekh raha tha aur dekhta hi jar aha tha. Uski aankhen wahan par pathra kar rah gayee thi. Kavita ne is baat ko mahsoos bhi kiya ki bhaiya uski chuchion ko hi ghur rahe hain. Usne aik tikha sa weing kiya “kaho bhaiya kya dekh rahe ho?” “Kuchh nahi, kuchh nahi.” Manish hakla kar rah gaya.

Usne apni dristi chuchion par se hata leni chahi lekin wo wanhi jakar tik gayee. “aaj kuchh badle-badle lag rahe ho bhaiya, lagta hai film ke naked sin ke prabhaw ne tumhare dimag ko jyada hi prabhavit kiya hai.” “han kavita aaj mai bahut hi pareshan hun, sara sharer toot raha hai, ang-ang sihar raha hai, bas man hota hai ki…” “kya man hota hai bhaiya, aaj maine bhi Isadora ke love ko dekha, mai bhi kuchh uljhan me hun, mere bhi sare sharir me gudgudi wyapat ho rahi hai.” “to aao aaj hum aik ho jayen, kavita, dono or brabar ki aag lagi hai, hum dono aik dusre ki aag bujhane me safal ho sakte hain.” “Lekin bhaiya kya yeh sab thik hoga, yeh paap nahi hoga.” “sab kuchh paap hi hai kavita. Is sansar me kaon paapi nahi hai, sab paapi hain, hum-tum bhi paapi hain, kewal aik yeh paap na karne se agar hum sare paapon se chhutkara pa len to chalo thik hai lekin nahi, kavita paap insan se hi hota hai, kabhi-kabhi insan jaanboojh kar bhi paap karne par utaroo hota hai.